well. talked to a poly friend on msn.. ... she read one of the posts that i've posted quite sometime ago... well... this is the post that i've posted... well not excatly.. what i've posted.. bt rather the extract of what i posted.

".. i think i'm going to be a loner... soon.. when school reopens.. dun think i want to mend it pretend that there isn't anything happened... i want to hang out by myself... and eating bad food in canteen 2... and go to the library and see what they offer... haha... "

and this is what my friend's thoughts:.. erm.. before u move reading.. White Oleander is my friend and i, the typically imfamous: Eddy, eddy, where art thou eddy?

i was bored~.. seriously, u got to learn to let go of ur sec schl thing..

~*WhiTe OLeAnDer*~ says:
we chatted abt this b4.. n its really silly to do that~.. whatever ur planning~..

~*WhiTe OLeAnDer*~ says:
dun be an escapist~ its miserable.. i been there~

~*WhiTe OLeAnDer*~ says:
n dun make sec schl life the only thing u wish to remember~

~*WhiTe OLeAnDer*~ says:
move on, friend~

Eddy.. eddy.. where art thou Eddy? LOVE ACTUALLY.... FANSTASTIC SHOW ACTUALLY! says:
haiz.. prob.. 4 months wasn't enough to make me move on..... i took about about couple of months ( when i was in secondary 1) to break away frm my primary school friend ..

~*WhiTe OLeAnDer*~ says:
there were a few mths in my life where i actually dodged people seriously.. coz i felt like i wanted to be alone~ and honestly, it doesnt feel good at all~

Eddy.. eddy.. where art thou Eddy? LOVE ACTUALLY.... FANSTASTIC SHOW ACTUALLY! says:
i know... i guess.. i need time to break away from the secondary school scence.. prob this sem.. i might to be able to meet them.. actually... cos timetable has changed unlike last sem.. i was still able to meet them alternate weeks.. ( that's quite alot of time actually) .. just hopefully. that this sem.. i can open up to more people..

Haiz..... i dunno... i guess i should take her advice and move on.... how? ... erm.... let me think about it..
i totally regret about why didn't i post the conversation i had with calvin.. cos tt was the first and the last time i would be chatting with tt obnoxious guy..